Here we are again. You're reading, I'm typing. Where does the time go? It's been over 3 months since my last entry! Tonight might be more of a free write so bear with me if I veer astray.
Frankly, I'm terrified. Far off in the distance is where I want my life to head. I'm slowly building a bridge to get myself there but it seems like it's made of popsicle sticks! I think when I moved to L.A. I had in mind how I thought this would all pan out. I was going to take a risk of epic proportions! I was managing a restaurant in Utah and thinking, "I can't do this anymore!" I needed to get out of my rut. Out of Utah, out of the restaurant. Here I am nearly two years later in California but still managing a restaurant. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for my job, I'm comfortable. I make enough money to be stable and the day in day out of my job is tolerable. But I wan't more! I work ten hours a day doimg something I no longer have passion for. I tread water and wait for something to happen. As I look down this hallway that is soon to be my thirties (eek!) I think, "where am I now?"
Here is what I know: Every day I am in the gym I feel like I'm at home. I know that some of you may not get it. I recently read a quote from a celeb magazine that read, "I hate when people say they love working out. Nobody loves working out." Well I do. And I'm pretty sure Richard Simmons is still really into it too. I want to go to work at a gym. I want to train people how to improve their health, bodies, self image, the list goes on and on. I've spent my entire gym rat life skeptical of personal trainers. I'll be the first to say some of them are a waste of time and money. I also spent a spell of time wandering around my own gym feeling self conscious and insecure. I wished so badly someone would show me how to use that machine in the corner that I couldn't discern from the instructions. I had fitness goals and no one to tell me how to get them accomplished. Does it matter if you do cardio before weights? Should you workout on an empty stomach? Are carbs really the enemy? I'm not 100% myself now, but I have spent time training with body builders, trainers, fitness professionals and the nutritionally savvy. I feel like I have something to offer. So maybe if I study really hard and seize this precious opportunity I've afforded myself I can get off my booty and go! As soon as I can take the financial risk I'll say sayonara suckers and go do what I have true passion for! Would you hire me?
